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[interpersonally]

PLAYER
» Journal: wayitcomes
» Birthdate/Age: 9/7/88 :: 22
» Characters Played: Not applicable.

CHARACTER
» Name: Stefan Salvatore
» Fandom: The Vampire Diaries
» Reference:

Reference 1
Reference 2

» Canon Point: 2x7 “Masquerade” after Elena tells him nothing has changed and that they can’t renew their relationship.
» Gender: Male
» Age: 162 years young but he looks 18. Explained below in the personality section, in some ways he’s very mature and in others, he isn’t.

» Orientation:

Stefan is heterosexual. Before he’s turned, he has a sexual relationship with Katherine Pierce. It's heated and extremely passionate. During canon, he has a sexual relationship with Elena Gilbert. Even when sneaking around, they manage to meet between the sheets.

» Personality:

At his heart, Stefan is a very passionate, deep, empathetic person. He, like any good vampire, can brood with the best of them but he is a kind and pure soul. Emily, Katherine’s handmaiden tells him that pure soul will be his downfall. He is the polar opposite to his brother, Damon. Stefan is the benevolent of the two brothers. He wants to go on un-living without making a lot of noise. He likes living normally.

Stefan is also very good at keeping his emotions in check. He has a fantastic poker face when it comes to something that’s bothering him. Unlike his brother, he didn’t shut his feelings off. If anything, those feelings have intensified. He explains in the third episode of the second season how when becoming a vampire all of a person's traits are amplified. Stefan's guilt and empathy then amplify after his transformation. As a human he was empathetic. When people suffered because of him in some way, he felt that guilt.

This also plays into his fear. He has this wonderful skill of bringing anything that goes wrong down on his own shoulders. It's sort of a six degrees of misery a la Stefan. If Damon attacks someone he feels responsible because he can do something about it. He even tries to. In the fifth episode of the first season, "You're Undead to Me," he captures Damon using vervain. His plan is to weaken him enough to move him to the family crypt. In fifty years, he would reevaluate. But Damon escapes.

In the late 1800's before he was turned, Katherine Pierce was his first love. Telling her he loved her was a big deal. He thought she loved him back and she does claim that she did. But, now, he believes he was compelled. He believes that the love he and Damon had for Katherine was a complete fabrication. And, he believes that Damon and he died for nothing when Katherine thinks they died for love. Even though Katherine claims she never compelled him to love her, Stefan believes she did.

Because Damon blames him, Stefan can't help but feel guilt for Katherine's death as well. And for his and his brother's. Had he not gone to his father and vaguely advocated for vampires then they wouldn't have been shot. At this point in the series he's working to move on from that guilt.

Despite being the good brother, he still has a predatory, demonic side to him. He kills if he absolutely has to but he feels remorse. If he can, he explores all other avenues before violence when it comes to humans. When Vicki becomes a vampire he tries his best at keeping her safe but when she goes for Elena he has no choice but to intervene. If somebody else could be hurt, he doesn't hesitate.

Like any being, Stefan has a selfish side to him. A part of him knows that wanting a relationship with Elena in general is selfish. She could always be in some kind of danger because of what he is. In season 2, Elena breaks up with him after Jenna is hurt citing their selfishness. At this canon point, he's ready to give that all up.

Stefan is also selfless in a lot of ways. When Elena is kidnapped, he admits to Damon that dying for her is worth it. He doesn't have to be asked for help. If someone needs it, he's there.

Stefan is very protective. He's not just protective of the woman he loves but the people she loves as well. He fights to keep Caroline alive as a vampire because Elena wants him to. He keeps the fact that he's a vampire from her to protect her. He continuously keeps back information from his past in order to not hurt her.

Stefan is devoted to those he loves - romantically. He was devoted to Katherine and he is utterly devoted to Elena. Again, when Stefan is asked to spare Caroline's life, he does because Elena asks him to. He will do anything he can for her. For the greater good, he plans to leave her completely. He understands the idea, "if you love them, let them go."

Human blood is like a drug to Stefan He can’t ingest human blood without developing a taste for it. For years, he’s stuck to animals and vermin so even a drop would be a terrible thing. As a young vampire, he reveled in both his power and thirst for blood. Over time this mellowed out and he still feels guilt from those whose lives he ended. Currently, Stefan has been drinking a little bit of Elena's blood every day to a) slowly develop a tolerance and b) to get stronger.

Stefan is a fan of control. One of the reasons he is so reserved is his fear of losing that control he's worked so hard for. Control over both himself and his urges.

Stefan has spent lifetimes trying to figure out where he belongs. It's something he struggles with every day. Stefan is afraid of being himself because his true self has fangs and a taste for blood. But, beyond that, he never got to live. He spends life as a perpetual eighteen year old. In some ways he is very mature but in others, he's still a child and that's a side people never see.

Stefan is 162 years old. Because he was turned way back when, he is a gentleman through and through. He is genuine, polite and nice. If he doesn’t have to be a dick, he won’t. That's not to say he can't wield a sarcastic sentence or two. He has quite the dry wit. He is quite chivalrous. He never pressures Elena into anything sexual at all. That’s not to say his urges aren’t there. He still was a man. When they are together he and Elena have a very healthy sexual relationship. When he gives into sexual urges, he can't help but transform. A part of him is ashamed of this and several times during a kiss he breaks it because of the emergence of his fangs.

Stefan never talks about it but he's ashamed of what he is. How could he ever be regarded as a real person? How could he ever be loved? The possibility of Elena seeing past that excites him.

A part of Stefan is always hopeful. An optimist of the future in his own right, he believes things will get better. He believes good things happen to good people but realistically knows bad things do as well. He believes in the good in his brother.

Which brings me to one of the obstacles in general for Stefan: Damon. Damon is his older brother but sometimes, it feels like Stefan is raising him – or at least is the older one. He loves his brother and he always will, whether he’s returning from the war as a Confederate soldier or snapping a girl’s neck. Damon blames him for Katherine's 'death' and he can't help that. He doesn't trust his brother and as I’ve said before, he fears what he’s capable of. Their relationship is borderline abusive from Damon's side. Before the series, he's checked in every ten years or so and made Stefan's life a living hell. Damon is a lit fuse ready to explode. At this point in the series, Stefan doesn’t trust Damon with Elena, either. Damon is in love with his girlfriend. He knows this but he also knows Damon will go to any lengths to protect her. Unlike Damon, Stefan is content with living – as hard as that may be - and attempting to live a normal life.

He’s shown at the beginning of the series writing in a journal. Stefan says in the "Pilot" that if he doesn’t write memories down, he forgets them, that memories are important. Damon describes his journal as Emerson with a lot of adjectives. A part of Stefan is always searching and a part of that is his intellectual curiosity. He reads and views films and enjoys it. He studies for fun. He studies to gain knowledge and he is able to retain a wealth of information. According to Damon, Stefan went Ivy League, enrolling in Harvard.

He’s extremely observant, keeping an eye - and ear - on his surroundings at all times. In the second season, he admits to Caroline that he easily saw through her distraction at the Mystic Grill. He makes friends more easily than Damon and he is very loyal. But, because of his nature there’s a side that will always sleep with one eye open. A part of Stefan expects things to fall through, for his life to blow up in his face. Part of that is Damon's fault and part of that is what he has become. Some days he wonders if he deserves to be accepted and loved. If he could bring back every one he killed or if he could undo it - he would.

Despite this all, he isn't the wet rag he's being portrayed as here. He has a sense of humor and finds it easy to mock people in general. He views every day he's alive as a gift. Unlike his brother, he has embraced his future and lives life to the fullest. He loves pop culture and history and finds them both fascinating. He loves football, watching and playing. It brings back good memories. He's an extremely romantic person. When he wants to be, he can be very welcoming. He also has a mischievous Damon side to him because he's still a teenager. He likes to have fun unlike what Katherine claims. He knows how to have a good time. Both, Lexi, his best friend as a vampire, and Elena bring out the fun side of him.

» Appearance: He has light brown hair that’s almost always gelled up. Pretty pale. He has brown eyes and bushy eyebrows. He’s definitely fit. 5’11. He has a rose tattoo on his right shoulder. Reference pic. HERE and HERE one with his shirt off.

» Suitability: Not applicable.

SAMPLES
» "amatomnes" Entry: Video

[ The feed turns on revealing the face of a slightly bleary-eyed confused man. ] Elena, is this your pho - [ But he stops as his arm feels the bed for his girlfriend. No, wait, his ex girlfriend. They aren’t together anymore. Then whose phone is – he looks up, and then around. He sets the device down and now, at an angle he can be seen sitting up. ]

…Katherine.

[ His hands come to the collar he now realizes is around his neck. His eyes widen as he picks the device up again and addresses it directly.]

I don’t know what you did to Damon or Elena but I’m not amused. You said before this was a game. It’s not Katherine. This is our life. You’re messing with Elena’s life!

[ He pauses, trying to calm himself to collect his thoughts. ]

Where are my clothes? I’m not your sex slave Katherine. This isn’t going to work out. Now, let me go.

Katherine!

[ The lack of response is frustrating and then he realizes he might not be talking to … just Katherine. Or, she might not even be able to hear him. If she dropped him off somewhere… then Elena isn’t safe. ]

If you can hear me, my name is Stefan Salvatore. If you have any information regarding where I am or a manipulative, psychotic brunette who you shouldn’t trust [ hell, perhaps, two… ] then please get back to me.

And Katherine if you’re on the end of this, it’s only a matter of time before I get back. Damon won't let you hurt Elena.

[ He finishes, realizing he’s out of breath. Wait – he’s – breathing. He brings the device back up. ]

…What did you do?

» "amatomneslogs" Entry:

Stefan’s lips moved first. They curled into a smile. He sucked in a breath and stretched out, letting out a half groan that settled into a yawn. His hands hit the headboard and he let out another groan. Turning onto his side, he swung his hand over what he thought was Elena’s sleeping form but it hit the unoccupied sheets. Funny. Maybe she had gotten up and gone to the bathroom or maybe she went for coffee. After the night before, Stefan just wanted to lay in bed all day.

“Elena…?”

His voice was scratchy. He yawned again and finally gave in to the urge to open his eyes. The fact that he wasn’t in his room registered almost immediately and he sat up. His eyes scanned the room for any trace of familiarity. His hands and jaw tightened as he attempted to manage his anger. He thought back to the last thing that he could remember. What had happened the night before?

He froze.

"…Nothing has changed, has it?" He whispered the words, remembering the events from the night before. For some reason, he couldn’t remember how he had gotten home – or if he had. Clearly, he hadn’t. He brought his hand to his mouth as he considered his options.

His hands slowly moved down his neck. He explored the surface of the collar before attempting to grip it. The next step was to rip it off but it wouldn’t budge. Sliding off the bed, he didn’t bother finding clothing as he made his way into the bathroom. He studied his reflection, running his hands along the collar. And then he noticed the ring he had been wearing was missing.

"Katherine."

Had he slept with her? He couldn’t have. Damon was on his way to entomb her. This couldn’t be happening. He stormed back out of the bathroom and froze near a stream of light. He couldn't keep back a growl. That was when he realized this entire time, he had been breathing. He was actually breathing. He brought his hand to his chest. His heart was beating. Eyes focused on the stream of light, he slowly reached his hand out fully expecting the need to recoil but ... nothing happened.

Next, he spotted his clothing. It had been neatly folded by the bed. That was a point under the, "kidnapped by Katherine" column. But, that still didn't explain his newfound mortality. He spotted the device on the night table beside the bed.

Not moving, he tried to force himself to remember the night before. If he had given in to Katherine, then he had been coerced.

"Or, she had played the part of Elena."

Up until then, Stefan was sure he could tell the difference between Katherine and Elena but with a hair straightener and – he knew he needed to find out what happened. He also knew he had to get the collar off. Once that happened, Katherine was going to wish Damon had entombed her.